As I’ve mentioned before, I’m going through some really serious stuff right now, and my mind is a jumbled, dark, twisted mess. My heart is in even worse shape. I’m currently watching Shrinking on Apple TV right now, and one of the things a few of the grieving characters do is put on a sad […]
Category: Pondering
Love in the Time of Cholera: Book vs Movie
Last year, I read Love in the Time of Cholera. This is notable because prior to this, I hadn’t picked up a book to read for fun in several years. I used to love to read when I was younger, but adulthood was so packed full of obligations I rarely had the time. Cue Quarantine, […]
One Year Later
I realize I’ve been silent for longer than usual (my rage has subsided from earlier in January and I’ve gotten a good night’s sleep since my last Data Dump) so I decided I’m long overdue to share some updates. I just went back and skimmed my posts from early in Quarantine, and Wowee Wow Wow. […]
Data Dump
I didn’t sleep at all last night. I was definitely tired enough, but I fell prey to that terrible scenario where your mind can’t stop racing and your psyche decides it’s a great time to bring up every sad memory or worrisome concern of the last 10 years up for inspection. This is undoubtedly brought […]
Nerd Alert: The Power of the Dark Side
I should preface this by explaining that I have long been enamored with the concept of the anti-hero as well as captivated by a well-written villain. There are many essays that could be written about the best villains in popular culture, and what makes being bad look so good. But the focus of my blog […]
Mirror, Mirror, on the Wall
When I initially sat down to write this post I had NO IDEA what to write about. I refuse to write another post about my stress over Coronavirus. Its been more of the same this past few weeks, politics-wise. So…..more Star Trek? Yes. About a week ago we watched the episode where Riker meets an […]
List of Things I’ll Never Do Again
I’m excessively bored and in dire need of things to do and write about. This is like a reverse New Year’s resolution—instead of a list of new things to try or accomplish, it’s a compendium of regrets. Mistakes in judgement you vow to never make again. I certainly have a few of those. This is […]
I do what the voices tell me to
I just found out very recently that not everyone has an internal monologue, and I am still reeling… An article (or perhaps a tweet, I can’t find the original source) a week or two ago brought to the internet’s attention that some people have an “inner voice” and other people are strange, alien savages who, […]
Why I write…and why I don’t
My extended absence from posting regularly has created a strange and urgent compulsion to explain myself regarding my recent neglect. I’m chalking it up to a deeply-ingrained sense of failure from childhood that I’m not living up to some ridiculously high standards I imposed on myself. Or something to that effect. I write because I […]
The Art of Feeling Gratitude
This is a topic I’ve spent a lot of energy thinking about in recent times. What started it all was a rather stressful year (planning a wedding while starting a new job = complexity! stress! %$&@!) and the realization a while into it that my tendency to stress was actually beginning to take a very physical […]
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